my body at any moment feels like it'll fall apart at the seams. Every day I wake up and look in the mirror to see the sight of bruises and scars decorating my pale body.
I see me, a useless black haired boy staring back with his stupid green eyes and his stupid face. I always think to myself, "you'll never be anything, you're just a rat in a cage with no escape". No matter how far I run they always catch me. No matter how much I cry they never stop beating me, they'll never stop. Every movement I make sends a feeling of fire spreading through my body. At this point my arms and legs look like a child got into red and blue and purple paint and decided to make spots all over their arms with it. I like a complete mess and I deserve it. At least that's what they've always told me.
They've tried brainwashing me but no matter what shit they do I'll never fall for it. I'm not an idiot.
I don't even like talking to anyone here, they all seem so brainwashed, like they have no personality.
It scared me sometimes. I want to save them but I don't know how.
but.... here's the thing. Theres this one kid.. he's my age, 16, and his name is Greyson. He doesn't seem brainwashed at all. Me and him are friends but they took him away. I don't know where but I want him back. I miss him and feel so cold and lonely without him. He was the only reason why I was happy and came out of my shell. I'd say they took him away like three months ago, and since then he's been gone. Whenever I try bringing him up they all act weird and say"don't know who that is", and it pisses me off!
And what's even more fucked up is that they've all done this before. I've asked when that person was coming back and they'd get this unnerved look in their eyes and say "don't know who that is, sorry"
It's all bullshit. Complete bullshit
I'm going to find greyson! I promised him that I would before he left! I promised him.